Things That Bang

I love cussing, people who know me know my need to act like foul-mouthed Ozzy but I surprised myself today. I tripped badly from a high ledge near a restaurant's parking lot post dinner, twisted my ankle badly and fell along side Parita.

The world blacked out, the food jumped to my throat and pain had me howling. Aaman and a dude nearby grabbed Parita, demanded whether I was okay and all I could think was - FUCK!! I am in fucking pain.

I was told Parita was fine despite the nasty fall. Somehow I managed to jump into the backseat of the car, Aayan very sweetly put my shoes in and Aaman drove towards the hospital.

The nausea and pain scrambled my brains and with every pothole that the car went over, I wanted to scream - Fuck Me Silly!! but the kids were in the car and I just howled and then realized that too was upsetting the kids.

Pain gave me the right to be foul mouthed but for once the legitimacy granted didn't make it right. I held back when they nearly toppled the wheelchair with me in it outside the hospital.

I had the right to scream- Fucking Shit but all I said was - Yaay!!

X-Ray time and it was again whimpers of pain - no screaming, no cussing!! I was trying to act prim and proper.

The doctor said the pain can be traumatic, sometimes patients even suffer blackouts. It set me wondering. For all my regular cussing when it really came down to it - I held back. Bad sprain, a shot of painkiller on my butt and a ride back home.

Currently I am hopping around the house like a one legged rabbit. It hurts bad but the foul mouth Dee seems to have disappeared.

Why?